My Face Hurt From Smiling
For the past several weeks he's been making little squeals and amused noises, but now he's upped his game. He is genuinely laughing.
Saturday night Steven and I met our friends, Heath and Brettany, for dinner. Towards the end of the meal Luke started getting fussy so Steven held him so he was facing Heath and bounced him. As soon as he saw Heath he just started laughing! Heath was smiling at him, but he wasn't doing anything he hadn't been doing throughout the meal. It didn't matter. To Luke, Heath was the FUNNIEST. THING. EVER.
He laughed and giggled for at least 10 minutes which, of course, made the 4 of us crack up. What really made us lose it was when he would stop laughing, look concerned for a few seconds, then start up again for no reason. I'm sure the fine folks at Outback Steakhouse thought we were a few cards shy of a full deck, but you try keeping a straight face in front of a laughing baby!
P.S. If I have the camera handy the next time he does this, watch out. The adorableness will be EPIC.
Luke's Baby Pictures
Luckily, I have








Is it wrong that the shots of him being serious are my favorite?
After Luke went down for his nap in the bassinet, I had Jack snap a few photos of the nursery. The room is too small for me to get any decent pictures, but Jack's fish-eye lens did the trick!

All photos by Jack Morton, Morton Photography
P.S. - I learned one very important thing doing this photo session. 3 weeks wasn't the best age for pictures. He was too alert to do the squshy, sleepy pictures you see of newborns and he was too young to be soothed or happy. So for future kid(s) we'll do his "first" pictures a little sooner.
You're So Vain, You Probably Think This Post Is About You


Happy 1/3 Birthday!
Product Review - gDiapers
I've Hit A New Low

P.S. - As a busy mom on the go, it's easier to look pulled together if you wear tops with interesting details near the neckline. The detail acts like jewelry, so you look polished without putting in any extra effort. I read that somewhere and it's totally true.
End Of The Year Blow-Out - Everything Must Go!
Fast-forward to last weekend.
Steven and Luke were sitting on the couch when he had his first diaper blow-out. (Not Steven, Luke. Steven's up to diaper blow-out number 4.) This was an up-the-back blow-out and Luke was kind enough to get poop on himself and the blanket he was sitting on. The silver lining: Luke thinks pooping is HILARIOUS and grins and giggles during a diaper change. It's hard to be mad at something that cute.
We immediately sprang into action: I grabbed Luke and Steven started cleaning the blanket. Since Luke had poop on his back, his diaper and the seat of his pants I had no choice but to put him face-down on the changing table. You can probably guess where I am going with this. As I was frantically wiping, and wiping, and wiping - seriously, how does such a little body hold so much waste? - Luke chose that exact moment to try rolling over.
We were THISCLOSE to having a poopy butt print smeared on the wall.
Udder Covers and Hooter Hiders
I firmly believe that a woman has the right to breastfeed her baby in public. It is a natural act and there is no reason any woman should be made to feel uncomfortable about it. In fact I have nursed Luke at a football game, in a restaurant, at his pediatrician's office and in more parking lots than I can count. That being said, I understand that many women are too modest to do that and this is why some clever person invented nursing covers.
I have one and I have used it a few times. It was nice when Luke was really small before he learned to latch quickly. Now he and I have developed a routine and the nursing cover is more of a hindrance since I can't see what I'm doing and it's hard to juggle it and the baby without someone to help me.
Perhaps my biggest problem with my nursing cover is that it seems to result in the opposite of discretion. I think most people are uncomfortable with public nursing because they don't like the idea of exposed breasts, not because they're actually offended by the view. In fact, most moms can nurse so discreetly strangers aren't even aware that it's happening. Unless, of course, she is wearing a nursing cover.
My nursing cover doesn't remotely look like an article of clothing. It does look a little like a smock, but it's clear I'm not doing arts and crafts. When I used to wear mine, I felt like I was screaming "DON'T LOOK OVER HERE! I'M BREASTFEEDING, BUT PLEASE IGNORE IT!"
So now I nurse au naturale and I leave the nursing cover at home. Moms, how do you feel about it?
The New "Mom" Jean
I have found my new "Mom" jeans. Don't worry - there isn't a pleat in sight.I was at Old Navy the other day (see, I told you my birthday money was burning a hole in my pocket) and I fell in love with the Sweetheart Skinny.
Most skinny jeans have a low rise. For all you childless gals, that look couldn't be cuter. But I'm a mom now and my firm baby bump has turned (back) into belly flab. That means low-rise jeans only lead to one place: Muffin-Top City.
Just because I push a stroller and drive a sensible sedan doesn't mean I'm willing to give up trendy pants. This is why the Sweetheart is so perfect. They're skinny jeans WITH A MEDIUM RISE! Pardon my enthusiasm, but did you just read that? I can wear skinny jeans without turning my midsection into a pastry!
I bought 2 pairs, but I left enough behind for you. What are you waiting for? Go shopping!
My Post On Breastfeeding
Throughout all of my research I came to the conclusion that breast milk was the only option. I still believe that breast is best - every Mom should at least give it a try - but I now know that formula isn't all bad. This opinion is, of course, the product of hindsight. When I was in the midst of the transition I felt like I was the worst mother ever for even considering giving Luke formula.
For the first eight weeks of his life, Luke had nothing but breast milk. He had a few bottles of pumped breast milk, but mostly he drank straight from the source. When I returned to work I was hell bent on pumping at the office so that he could still have breast milk while he was at Grandma's house. I was easily pumping 15 ounces a day and that was enough for him. That lasted until he hit a growth spurt a week later. The 15 ounces was no longer enough and I couldn't keep up with his increased demand. Just to be clear - my milk supply wasn't a problem, but I was already pumping 3 times a day for 15-20 minutes each time and I couldn't afford to be away from my desk any longer than that.
I started agonizing over what to do. Do I pump more? Work less hours? Switch him to formula? Formula seemed to be the obvious answer, but how could I do that? I was an anti-formula Mom!
The answer came to me in two ways.
First, I read this (perfectly timed) blog post and everything made so much more sense. You see I had (wrongly) learned that formula was an all-or-nothing deal. I was under the impression that if I skipped even one feeding my supply would dry up and I would be forced to switch to formula. It never occurred to me that I could give Luke formula during the day and still breastfeed him the rest of the time. Biologically, it seems similar to your body training itself to make less milk overnight as your baby learns to sleep through the night.
Even thought the blog post made me feel better, I was still on the fence. One night Steven looked at me, clearly tired of my whining on the subject, and said "It's formula, not poison! Lots of babies eat formula."
What really convinced me was this: one day I picked Luke up from Grandma's house and he was screaming. She told me he finished his bottle an hour ago and had been crying ever since because he wasn't satisfied. That was just the slap in the face I needed to make my decision.
The guilt I have over giving him formula is NOTHING compared to the guilt of watching him cry because my milk isn't enough. There is no room for pride in motherhood.
I went out that night and bought him some formula. The next day he had his 15 ounces of breast milk and then he had some formula and he didn't fuss one bit. Because he took to it so well, I backed off of pumping at work - I basically had to train my breasts to stop producing so much during the day - and now he is only fed formula at Grandma's house.
When he is at home with me he is 100% breastfed. He will get the occasional formula bottle from Steven if I am at the gym (I go 3 nights a week now, hooray for me), but I still plan my schedule around Luke's feedings so he rarely gets hungry before I return home. My body seems fine with keeping up with an erratic schedule. On weekends and Wednesdays I breastfeed him all day, then when I'm at work the other four days I get a little full, but it's not painful.
Perhaps the best benefit of using breast milk and formula is the freedom I feel. Not the freedom to be away from Luke, but the freedom to nurse him more. I had assumed that I would have to wean him completely when I go back to work full time in January. That would make sense for my life, but in terms of his development it's completely arbitrary. Now that I know I can use a combination of breast milk and formula I don't feel the need to cut him off completely in January. He can get an extra formula bottle during the day, but I can still nurse him in the morning and in the evenings. I now have the freedom to watch his cues and let him tell me when he's ready to stop nursing.
So, in a nutshell, I want to express that nothing about motherhood is black and white, especially feeding your baby. Experiment with what works for YOU and trust that your body will keep up. It's smarter than you think.
How Was Your Halloween?
I was really excited about carving a pumpkin this year. Steven and I were leaning towards a simple ghost design, but then our not-so-inner nerds spoke up and we were inspired to carve a ghost... being chased by Pac-Man.
It has been at least 10 years since I've had a jack-o-lantern and I was really anxious to get started. Perhaps too anxious. Notice how the ghost's left eye is smaller than his right one? That's because we carved the pumpkins a week early, not remembering how quickly they start to mold and wilt. Eh, live and learn.
Another notch for the bummer column - we ran out of candy by 7:30. Not wanting to disappoint the trick-or-treaters, I raided the pantry. But since I'm back on Weight Watchers, this is all I had:
However, nothing could truly bum me out because I got to play with this little munchkin all day:
Really, Luke, could you get any cuter?
I'll see your Halloween jumpsuit, and raise you one lobster pot.Touche, Lobster Luke, touche.
Best picture of the night:
We didn't take him trick-or-treating (3 month olds don't eat candy) but we had fun dressing him up and seeing all the neighborhood kids in their costumes. Steven and I dressed up as chefs but we didn't get any family pictures because Luke tapped out for a nap before we could get that coordinated. Maybe we'll try again one night this week.
Tell me readers, what was your costume?
